Relationships

Likewise all the peace that rests around me
You as an anodyne enter my memory
Replace my agression and depression
Takin' me to a whole new dimension
I'm flying somewhere up in the skies
When suddenly, you pass by
And lit up the whole room
With your beautiful smile
That takes my imagination more than a mile
And when the blooms of love are touched
I come back,
As you are right here, 
The love that I searched.

Well, you can't be that man I adored
You don't care, don't seem to know
What your heart is for
Well, I don't know you anymore
It's not right
The feeling I get when I try to push you aside
I leave your thoughts inside my head
They are pleasant and they're bitter
Those memories are not that beautiful anymore
It was an illusion
A disconcerting diffusion of my life
Shall I live, die or shall I strife?
After if I feel I have let you go by
God listens to prayers that are true
From the heart while I screamed I love you
I prayed thrice for this love to die
Inside my heart, it's a little bare
Baren such a forest in heaven
It was filled with beauty under moonlight
It was true, a vision of my past in sight
But will I succumb or truly fight?!
I'm scared, I'm out of luck
I don't miss it all that much
If it's a life let it die
WIth the whisperings of my emotions
When they call out
With all my love to you... 
Don't listen, you'll be lost forever
I beseech my heart to let go of what it feels
I don't need to actually let it heal
I'll let it pass through me
With the way I'm torn
Was it just a lullaby?
When your heart sang
And kisses lingered on me
Was it passion?
Or was it chemistry?
I don't care, you've no right!
Over me, or on my soul that thrives!
In ways I can't define
Once bitten, but I'll never be shy
Nobody knows you like I do...
Cuz this world won't understand
I grow stronger in your hands!
Now my devotion is fading...
And my love diminishing out of sight
I won't put up any fight
I don't need to mourn, I need to cry
You're a little late, I won't give in or give away
Gladness in my life without you wont make me mourn
As I feel already torn...

You left me astray
Feeling nothing but betrayal
So now whose going to love you as much as I do?
Who will fulfill your inhibitions?
Who will be giving to you?
You live in a world where everybody's studying racing form,
And before you mould to them,
Think what it is you want!
Who will accept you for you, your fantasies and fallacies?
Who will fulfill you like I did?
Did I not make you laugh?
Or will I ever bore you..
Did I not charm you?
Or did I not disarm you?
Did I not make you feel like a man?
Or did I not give myself to you...?
Did I not make you smile?
Or did I not fill colours in your life?
Did I not make you happy?
Or did I not make you feel wanted?
Did I not make you feel you were mine?
Or did I not make you feel flattered?
Did I not show you the beauty in life that can be...
Or did I not give you a glimpse of a real life for us...
Did I not love you enough?
Or did I ever bring tears to your eyes?
Did I not hide my insecurities from you?
Or did I not give myself away when you imposed??
Did I not make you feel like a boy?
Or did I not make you feel undeprived?
Did I not love you enough...
Or do you wish to make me cry?!
I let you step all over me, and
have your way, indignantly...
Mercy, you didn't show!
Love, you didn't sow!
If it was false, if it was fake
Let it be the cause,
of the smile on my face.
I didn't plan such an ending,
to something so real...
A tending heart like mine only might ever heal...
For you I am lost without words to say,
Without you, I am distraught-
because you've had your way...
A window is open to you, my love!
If you care enough to look in it...
You'll see a beauty of a life that we can share.
Fear not, for if nature will dare to unite us in every way,
until then, do think of me, darling!
For I'm helpless as I live on your memories.
You touched me once, and now I'm smitten forever,
Love can only be made together!
If there is hope, let it show.
If there's love, don't be afraid to live in my heart forever.
Now tell me my dear, how many women feel this way for you???
(nobody, but...)

Week after week, I feel more betrayed
The chances of life are no longer found,
Are not strong enough to keep me sound,
but enough to keep me buried underground.
Lies and fallacies are detrimental aspects, I strife to contend with.
My faith unwavered, my patience is eternally lost since.
But I am glad to not find any reason to live.
All I'll ever be glad for is when perhaps my life will diminish.
I'm a fool, yes, I'm a fool!
An arrogant, and innocent fool!
A fool of the 21st century!
A fool for the torment and treachery!
A fool, incomplete!
A fool, in defeat!
A fool unwanted!
A fool sad enough to contemplate suicide!
A fool enough to forgo the potential aspects of my wisdom...
And magnify the imprudence of my character in defeat...
In defeat and shame, a certain treachery,
As I waver and stumble through the process of recovery.
Nobody adduced to me to share,
The deplorable life of the lonely, is not fair...
They choose to relive their temptations on me,
until I'm smitten in every way that I could be...
They step on me, and move on,
their pleasures, their solid ground.
A traitor, an egotistical traitor!
A faker, a confused faker...
Him, who was selfish enough to step all over me!
He wasn't perfect but he was there for me.
In ways that I can't explain...
In ways that got out of hand...
In more than one way,
such rekindling, healing temptations were enough to mend me this time...
But my heart, you traitor, will forever be bitter!
In through ways that made you almost mine...

I don't believe what I know
What I feel that I show
And I'm unsure of what to say
In the length of the day
When it turns to night
I feel so lost
And I feel I'm distraught
Why do I know, how to get what I want...
And it's just that, I'm lost without you
I feel distraught
You are influencing me
Taking me higher
More than I feel myself to be.
It's just a fantasy
I hope i'm not incomplete
When I wake up to see
You not here right next to me.
If I'm smitten, let it show
If I feel complete, let it be known...
This is true of what I sow
I am now where I want to be
If this is false, if this is fake
If this is not, let it be the cause of the smile on my face
And I know what I want,
As you are the reason for my song...